Ode to my Sister

Anyone who knows me well, knows a piece of my heart is always with my sister. I don't have any friends closer than sister. I have always looked up to her. She shared her love of travel with me and so i love to travel now. She shared her love of the Lord with me, and so i love the Lord. She has shared a picture of a godly marriage with me and so i have referred many of our boundaries back to my sis's boundaries. I highly respect her and love her. i heart sister. And so.... these final days were precious to spend with her. Lars has left many times before to live other places for extended periods of time so i am used to her being gone. However, no departure of hers has torn me up quite like this one. I'm not sure if its because i just had a baby or because she is pregnant or because she now has a family she has taken with her also. It could be because she lived only 7 minutes away for the last year or because she invited me over for countless dinners, or because she left her baby and husband to fly home to be with me and my new baby, or because she cared for my baby 2 nights in a row so i could sleep. I don't know what it was Sis.....? But i miss you so much more then ever before. Love you lots sis.... xoxo

PS For monthes before Lars left, i had recurrent dreams of asking her to stay home. In my my dreams I cried out to her "Don't leave! I can't do it without you!" and in my dreams she always said.. "Ok. I won't go then." Haha and so Sister, that is why i never asked you not to go. Because i know South Asia is where the Lord has you and it would have been selfish for me to interfere. (Actually, i MAY have broken down and said "i dont know what i'll do without you" but i TRIED not to.)